desert dream
IM NOT DONE
I still where the necklace he made
the photographs gone but it’s all the same
the boy down the road of my mind he has hold and I swear I never thought it’d be this way
What about you what about you what about you oh you’re just a slave
What about me what about I what you and what about time it’s all okay
Cause if happiness is just a moment
when the sun is shining bright and the shadow’s broken
I’m already there
I’m already scared
I’m not done I’m not done here
Chances what are the chances I’ll love unblind
and hopeless hopeless romances they’re
living lies they’re living lies
so take me won’t you take me you oh
take me when the time is right
Cause if love is blinding I don’t wanna feel it
we already know only god can give it to me sweet and slow
sweet and slow
I’m not done i’m not done here
I’m not done I'm not done here
I’m not done I'm not done here
I’m not done I'm not done here
Cause if love is blinding I don’t wanna feel it
we already know only god can give it to me sweet and slow
sweet and slow
I’m not done i’m not done here
I’m not done I'm not done here
I’m not done I'm not done here
I’m not done I'm not done here
NEVER READY
Heart of my own
You wondered off again
when i told you to stay close
Now look at you, bruised and broke
It’s all part of the learning I have to do
I’m sure that you learned a few valuable things too
like, ‘She’s perfect’
you told me
I don’t believe you
If it’s all you, none of it me
Why don’t we work through it?
How dare you leave it all so unclear
Doubt I’m innocent I’m not innocent here
Was I moving too fast
Was I not even ready
Well we’re never ready
we’re never ready
Now as the world spins bleeding
I’m still stuck here singing
Of my heart you stole
I don’t regret you, you’re lovely
My darling, I just wish you’d not go
Wish I had known
I was moving too fast
I was not even ready
Well we’re never ready
we’re never ready
Was I holding too tight
Cause I felt you slipping as soon as my walls became cracked
We’re never ready for that
It’s not personal if you
don’t know how to love anyone
If this is not about me
all I’m left to believe
is you don’t know how to love anyone
Well we’re never ready
we’re never ready to love anyone
we’re never ready
we’re never ready to love
BECAUSE
Meet me at the wedding post I know I am afraid of this
Rid me of my innocence I know we can untangle this
It was because because because I’m a mess
It was because because because I’m obsessed with the thought of fixing you up
Hanging by a silver thread I know it was the way we saw things
Happier than happiness could grant us we were in charge of us We were in charge of us
and it was because because because I’m a mess
It was because because because I’m obsessed with the thought of fixing you up
Thoughts of you come all too often
Beating still my heart is a coffin of doubt that you ever did love me
I know that you love me
And calling out my misbehavior runs deeper now it runs deeper later
I thought we could do this together
Oh god can we do this together
Oh god can we do this together
It was because because because I’m a mess
it was because because because I’m obsessed with the thought of fixing you up
GONE
I want to know if you can handle this
if you can process shit feeling cold
I want to know if you are well equipped
Could you finish this on your own
It don’t have to take so long
I haven’t always been clear but dear I’ll tell you now that you’re gone
I was a liar holding on to fire
We had all been very still very still very still
I was a coward making my way through our little bit of common ground common ground common ground
What about them and all their innocence
this broken home we built
shattered floors
No more to give but separate wedding gifts
Uninhabited wisdom
What do we know what do we know what do we know
It didn’t have to take so long
Why did this have to take so long
I was a liar holding on to fire
We had all been very still very still very still
I was a coward making my way through our little bit of common ground common ground common ground
Well we don’t have that much
No we don’t have that much
But they don’t have to end up like us
They don’t have to end up like us
I don’t have to end up like them
YOU AND I
Love, how’d it come to this?
If nothing’s wrong with us,
why’d you leave?
And God, where’s the truth in it?
Cause it’s not obvious
and I am weak
Love after love it’s not right
But if you’re the one leaving it’s fine
Time after time I’m not fine
My heart is loyal, stupid, and blind
There’s to this life
than you and I
you and I
You
We are done
cause you cannot hesitate
now that my head is on straight
I am all gone
And I was wrong to think that your mind would change
Your love is a losing game
But you have not won
Oh love, how’d it come to this
That I feel marvelous
on my own
And God, you were a part of this
When family fell to shit
You were there to hold
Time after time we’re alright
though our hearts are loyal, stupid, and blind
There’s more to this life
There’s more to this life
Than you and I
you and I
You
UNFAMILIAR ROAD
Soft heart anxious to start
Whats already been started
I don’t even know if my heart is
big or small
I just want it all
Numb this numb this numb this
Feel this feel this
Unfamiliar road
I keep walking slow
I’ll keep walking slow
Kissed a boy in Mexico
thought that it would help me let you go
Mmmm
When I fly back to the bitter town
Where I first found love and first fell down
Well I will feel this I’ll feel this
Unfamiliar road
I keep walking slow
I’ll keep walking slow
And I’m not very good
at what I don’t
How can we not
know right from wrong
If beauty is honest
it’s not always pretty
Let it show
Beauty I want to know
Beauty I want to know
Beauty is honest
DESERT DREAM
Little world you are oh so big in my mind
Oh my life you’re all that’s in front of me
City nights city nights
and a desert dream
ooooo
Pardon me I’m just grasping for freedom
And I’ll follow nothing
if comparison is a thief
There’s a cost to be lost
And I must break the dark
Of a lovers teeth of reality
The silence when my god won’t speak
I’m dramatic
I feel a lot
And I’m crazy thinking this is what you’d want
So as you exit
Know I loved you a lot
Pardon my I’m still grasping for freedom
And I’ll follow nothing
If comparison is a thief
There’s a cost to be lost
And I must I must start
With feeling less
and doing more
Making passes at the unexplored
Stop wallowing
Stop following all the things that I don’t want to be
Ooooo
ooooo
I’m fine on my own
I’m fine on my own
I KNOW
I am not a little girl
You can spit me out and tell me honey this is how the world is
I’m aware of how it turns
And I know I know I know I know I know
This is gunna hurt
Never thought that this would break
With so many pieces lingering so much I need explained
Well I’m never good at swallowing my fate
I know I know I know I know I know
I know I know I know I know I know
It’s gunna be okay
Close to an outlaw
Is this part of growing up?
Is it standard behavior to never know what I really want?
Call my execution a mystic fusion of forget-me-nots
I am down in the bellows of my own despair
I am down and I’m asking God to meet me there
I am fine I am fine
just obsessed with my own life
Oh I am fine I am fine
just obsessed with my own life
I know I know I know I know I know there’s more than one
I know I know I know I know I know I’m not them
I know I know I know I know I know we’re all broken
I know I know I know
I’m grounded
I’m grounded
STAINED GLASS
So love come find me, ooh
Oh love come find me, ooh
Oh love come find me, ooh
Oh love come find me, ooh
Oh love come find me
Oooh
Oooh
HOME
Time has slipped away and my mind says love's to blame
well I don't know where to go from here
Can't say it's been worth while
All this time spent running wild and by wild I mean standing pretty still
Ooo I am low
ooo take me home
Soften my addictions
I will surely be convicted any minute now when I run out and I'm not proud I know I'm lost
Changing with the weather now I'm floating like a feather does
Holding out holding out
holding out
Ooo I am low
Ooo take me home
Well it's not hard times
It's just changing
I can learn or I can hate it
I can laugh along the way if
Love stays far away
Ooo I am home
Ooo I am home
With our eyes half mast And our thighs undressed
When the darkness presses overhead
I must keep it together
Wish that I knew then what I know now
The changes they've changed me somehow
And I'm not all that anxious
I know now that changes Changes are constant
Ooo I am home
Ooo I am home
